Have you ever had memories or dreams about things that remind you of the feelings that you are trying to hide or not let go of? Last night I had a series of bad dreams that reminded me of just that.
These dreams happened to feel so real it was like I was living in them and they made me feel emotions that I hadn’t touched on in so long just for the fact of trying to hide them.
One of the major dreams made me remember how I felt when I wasn’t perfect enough for someone and they just kept forcing the image of perfection on me. They used physical and verbal abuse to make me this image of perfection. The thing that always made me angry is that if a person is not reaching for perfection, how can they expect it out of others. It just didn’t seem right, nor did it seem fair. In the dream, I kept striving for perfection, the more I tried the more tired I got and the less motivated I seemed. The person would still come up behind me and yell things and hit me. It made me cry out loud and my husband had to wake me up.
I am in the process of figuring out how I can move forward and learn from this feeling that my subconscious has decided to move out of storage. Any thoughts?
